Thursday, February 13, 2020

Golden Rings

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I've been mildly fascinated by the idea of nipple piercings since my second dom introduced the idea several years ago. I mean, I'm also terrified by the idea. I didn't get my ears pierced until I was 19, after all. Piercings were never really something I had much interest in when I was younger. I'm sure my aversion to needles had a lot to do with it.

Anyone who knows me knows I have a strong aesthetic for the harem girl. I'm a belly dancer after all, so harem girls, odalisques, silk and bell-clad dancers have long since been my obsession. The idea of pretty, seamless loops from which to drape chains fits that image well as well as the slave image in my mind. Also, I just really love chains and the feel of metal against my skin.

Of course, I'm a coward, so at no point have I ever done this. I'm a masochist, sure, but needles have always freaked me out. And the horrid experience I had with getting my ears pierced has made me a little gun shy.

Also, there's no small amount of self-consciousness attached to the idea. I'm fat and my breasts are small. Not exactly the image I think of when I imagine a sensual dancer draped in chains and flowing silks. I feel like I will look a bit silly. I've never had the best self-image. The reality never matches the fantastical images in my mind.

So, I think I've made a decision in that regard. Combine goals, if you will. I gained a lot of weight in my last bout of depression. I gained back everything I lost, plus some extra, and I'm a bit ashamed by that. I need to lose it. I mean, I could do to lose more than that, but reasonable goals are easier to achieve.

I would like to be able to buy costumes from vendors at my dance events, which is difficult at my current size. I would like to actually fit the image in my head when I think of those shiny little loops. And maybe put a little less stress on my knees. I've done it before, so I know it's possible.

If I can manage to lose 50lbs, I think I'll go ahead and get those piercings. And my ears too. They've closed up and they need to be redone. So, to those of my friends who have their nipples done, expect to be asked for recommendations and perhaps to accompany me to the appointment. I'm an awkward turtle.

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